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In 2009, I began writing this piece as a memoir. I had a story that could be told which might benefit someone, me included.
In September 2011 my relationship had become a critical mess, an outgrowth neither of us felt good about or wanted. I decided to take a solo journey to find myself. I wanted to go where I knew I would find my truth—home—to Maui. I had no intention of leaving her or moving back to Maui. All I wanted was space to find my lost identity, to heal my hurting soul and to rest after the holocaust that was caused by cancer and grief. On this trip to Maui, a past-life-memory surfaced. I had been writing a memoir for two years and began, what I thought, a novel based on the recovered memory. The first three chapters flowed out of me. I fictionalized the images which I remembered from a brief past-life regression, a relief from the memoir, I thought. |
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I had landed on the island, pale, weak and burnt out. My best friend cooked for me out of the garden she produced. Massive greens of every variety grew abundantly on the land; fruit trees flourished. Within a few days, my color improved, and my energy returned.
I spent the rest of the two weeks nurturing myself and planning the return to Maui, alone. Within two weeks, I ended my relationship and moved out of her house into my condominium. A month later, I closed my private practice. Two weeks after that, I boarded a plane for Maui with my two Maui friends, who had flown to California to help me. |
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Once on Maui, I began writing again making it a modified fiction based on my life and calling it a novel. One day while in the bathtub, a refuge of salt and lavender, I intuited the meaning of it all. The novel gave me distance to heal from my own pain and allowed me to see the relevance of this lifetime through Rachel’s eyes.
In this first book, Rachel learns the wisdom of her own inner voice and not to be a victim of circumstance. Even though the movement "Me Too" had not yet been invented and the sense of diversity was not paramount in the world view, Rachel deeply lived through these experiences. In book two Rachel overcomes her multitude of losses, rises above the grief that her mother, her sister and she each experiences. Her goal in life is to recover and to be happy and content with whatever life offers her. Book three is forthcoming with Rachel's life expanding, developing and finding her growing edge toward spiritual freedom. She lives under the view of Haleakala Volcano on Maui. |
